she gave us what we didn't know we needed

'Cause there we are again when I loved you so 

Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known

(...)

The idea you had of me, who was she?

A never-needy, ever-lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you 

Not weepin' in a party bathroom 

Some actress askin' me what happened, you

That's what happened, you

(...)

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it

I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still tryin' to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

*

besonders schlimm:

dein minimum hätte, damals, mehr als gereicht

just between us – did it maim you too?

ich fürchte mich vor dem 1. januar

full circle

new years day

warme decken, du, wärme, nicht ganz echt aber egal

vs.

undeniable cold cold cold

frage mich, wieviele scheren ich brauche, um dich abzuschneiden

enough is enough

aber alles was ich will 

you you you you you

boat day

this morning I was on a boat

beauty was all around me

but all I could think about was

how you don’t love me

did you ever love me?

when I came home

I crashed

my copilot has left

and all of the sudden

there was no one in the world that could catch me

I fell deeper and deeper

I crawled on the floor like an animal

ripped out the pages with your writing

I asked god to help me

because I couldn’t see anything anymore

with the view still foggy

I reached out my hand

but you didn’t reach back

because but you have left a long time ago